Tuesday 3 March 2015

#DearMe

Alright, so I haven't posted in a while, but hey. Hopefully, i'll be a bit more regular again...

The #DearMe campaign was launched recently and with several people posting what they would tell their younger selves, I thought I would hop on the bandwagon and maybe help a few people out in the process.

Ok, so last year, I had my first panic attack, and since then I have had several bouts of anxiety. And at the time I thought that it would be better if I didn't tell anyone because I was scared of what they might think of me...Things like 'She's just feeling sorry for herself' and 'it's a cry for attention'. I kept it in for so long that I had to leave university because I couldn't face going to lectures and being told that I was stupid.

But I thought that if I wanted to impart my wisdom on a younger me, the me from a year ago would be too close to the me of today (if that makes any sense, it did in my head). But then I began to think, it seems to be human nature to worry about what others think. But before I went to secondary school I never really cared. But then again, I loved my Prep school, and I loved the people in it (no...not like that). It seemed to be only when I became a teenager and was surrounded by people I didn't know and that wanted me to look, dress and act like them, that I first became so aware of other people's thoughts about me, and as a result my self confidence plummeted. I hadn't really thought anything about it until I came upon this little advert. But I do not think that all of these things happen totally because of Puberty (and obviously it doesn't just happen to girls), I think that the change from one school to another is always scary, and being plunged into a completely unknown environment with new people never really helps. But anyway here is the advert, have a look and maybe a think.


But I digress, The one thing I would tell the younger me is that You shouldn't care about what anyone thinks about you, the only person's opinion that matters is your own. If you have to change who you are to make other people happy then they aren't worth it. It sounds so unoriginal and cheesy but it is so true, I wish I had told my family about how I was feeling at the time instead of keeping it in, because they would have told me the truth, and maybe I wouldn't be petrified of new situations and other people's views. I hope this has helped, if it has why not share it about. what would you tell your younger self? I'd love to know.

Xxx

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